Even on my weakest days I get a little bit stronger. Here lies my strength, my hope. I can not explain to you what I’ve been through, or what this ring mens to me, but it is extremly special. God brought this ring into my life for a reason; he knew I needed it. I have my low days. I refuse to fall back into that deep whole again. This ring pulls me through. I will not rid my pain through alcoholism, smoking, partying,etc. I have come too far to ruin it all. I will pray, sing, and trust in the Lord, for He is my greatest strength. I believe I can and will get better. Sometimes, I just need someone to pray for me. I shall cast my fears and pain on the feet of the Lord and be free. I will overcome. “If God brings you to it, He’ll get you through it.”

People always want to know why I’m constantly single. Why I never persue anyone. Here’s why:

I feel like I’ll never be good enough for anyone, as if no one will ever want me. I feel like no matter what, I’ll do everything wrong and screw it up. I’m very insecure about my weight, how I look, everything. I feel like no guy will ever find me pretty, or beautiful or anyrhing like that. I feel like people see me as the fat, ugly, nerdy girl who will never have a boyfriend, someone they would NEVER date. I’m scared. What if I’m not a good girlfriend, kisser, etc? I’ve also been hurt and betrayed by alot of people, and I feel like if a guy started talking to me it would be because he thinks it’s funny and is playing a joke on me. I just feel like no guy would ever want me…. well except for that EXTREMLY CREEPY stalker kid, who is a creep and stares me down. He is so weird and gross! He scares me. Why can’t I just be one of those girls who dates guys and is a good girlfriend,The one guys want to date??? I feel so lame and weird when my “friend” tells me I’m weird and gives me disgusting looks because I’ve never dated any guy, and she’s had a string of boyfriends since 2cd grade. I hate feeling like a loser/outcast because of my dating situation. Why can’t I be normal???

Sex and making love are completely didferent things.

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God has done a lot for me. I feel like even though I thank Him for every little thing He does, that my thank you’s just don’t cut it. And they don’t. I know He accepts them and knows how much I really appreciate it, but how can I give enough thanks after He gave me eternal life, front parking…

Awww!!! I love her!!! <333

17!!!!! I can now legally see an R rated movie without sneaking in! (not that I ever did that, or anything:) ] It didn’t hit me til the other day, when I got back home from my trip, that I was no longer 16. See, I hadn’t let the words of me being 17 slip out of my mouth, I only wrote it, and boy does it hit you in the face when yoy finally say it, and you have that moment of realization. I just wanted to thank God for giving me 17 amazing years on his creation, and for all the things he has shown me and taught me, and all the blessings he’s given me. Thank you, Lord, for EVERYTHING. <333